exactly five years ago

I've been really in a reminiscing mood since tomorrow is the birthday of someone I held very close to my heart. I honestly thought we'd be the best of friends for ever. Yeah, one of those people, well, I mean, he'll always have that special place with me because he was just that important to me and I miss having him in my life...I really do. It's awful not being able to talk to him like I used to and whatnot. I thought he was the only person to ever get me, but I guess I have to let go at some point about that stuff, right? It's hard though since I'm the kind of person that remembers basically every. Anyway, there was a reason I was writing this. Hahaha. Yes, I always have reasons...main one...I'm bored. Second reason...I just feel like doing this. Yeah, that's about it really.

Alright, so exactly four years ago, it was Julian's 16th birthday and I remember this particular birthday because it was the first time I ever drank in my life. Yes, I was a late bloomer in a sense since half the people I've ever met in my life had their first drink at like 12. Why brag about that? I mean, really? Well, I remember practically living at Julian's house at the time since I would bum rides to get there and just talk to his mother, father, brother, or him. See? I was pretty close to them and I miss those times. Well, we had this little party for him and his parents let us all drink since we weren't planning on driving anywhere. I was fifteen...I know...shame on me. haha.

Well, the one thing that really stuck out on this day was this event...watching the movie Aladdin. It's my favorite Disney movie, by the by. So, Carlos, Julian's brother, decided to put that movie in when we were chilling in his room...all buzzed and whatnot. Well, I'm laying on Julian's lap and I think Mandi's back. Ha. Yeah, something like that. On the part where Aladdin is stuck in the Cave of Wonders, I was really get to the point of being near drunk and as Genie went, "And I can't bring people back from the dead...It's not a pretty picture! I don't like doing that!" He's all green and like melting or something at that point, right? Well, I'm watching this scene and all of the sudden Genie's eyes are like changing from red to green...spasm status. I freaked out!

I screamed and fell off the bed, laying on the floor and part of Mikey's leg. Everyone stared at me and started laughing hysterically. I laughed with them and then Julian fell on me. Mandi came after that and then Shelley and Carlos. Oh God...I couldn't breathe, but that was the last time I ever saw all of us in the same room together...laughing, smiling and just being so close. I miss that so much. Granted, they were dying of laughter over my stupidity, but I'd love to relive that just once more time since all those friendships began to waver a bit. =/

I'm a sap...so sue me. But, you have to admit that me falling off the bed in such an ungraceful manner was entertaining to envision, right? Yeah, I thought so. And...HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIAN! And...CONGRATULATIONS SHELLEY ON GETTING ENGAGED!!!

Yeah, I'm really excited for both of them and I'm just glad that their lives are going well from what I've gathered. It's sad when friendships begin to dwindle, but that is life, right? I just want to keep those I love as close as I can, but sometimes letting go is the way to do it.