CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

Matt FINALLY proposed to my sister and of course she said YES! I'm so happy for them. Congrats to both of you, I love you both! =]

Now...sit the fuck down and choose a wedding date dammit!!!!

hehehe <3

oh how time flies...

I'm currently waiting for my video to upload. I made two tonight...one is about what I received for my birthday and the second is my memories of youtube back in the day. hahaha. Good stuff. I just hate waiting. Ugh. Anyway...

My birthday was lovely. I got to spend time with the people I love and adore and whatnot. We had loads of fun in San Diego, but never got to pick a pumpkin from a pumpkin patch...it's like people don't want our business, what's up with that? Sheesh...you'd think in the financial state America is in, people would want my money, right? hahaha.

Well, Vegas definitely took a toll on my wallet, but mainly because food and drinks were utterly expensive...as were clothes. See, we thought it would be nice a warm-ish in Nevada like it is in So Cal, but we were utterly wrong. It was so windy and frigid that I nearly froze my arse off. Horrible. The alcohol did help slightly, but not really. hahaha. We wound up purchasing jackets and whatnot while in the Miracle Mile Shops and I won about 200 dollars, but spent the lot of it. Shame.

That's basically the gist of my birthday. Oh! I got a brilliant ukulele and a BRAND NEW LAPTOP!!!! YESSSS!!! This year has been amazing and I love all of you that made it grand. Thank you all so much! <333

slightly peeved, but not

Well, one of my youtube videos was suspended because I used a song by HelloGoodbye. I guess should've seen that coming, but I gave credit and everything, so I don't know. Oh well. I did quite like that video actually because it made me laugh, but I guess I'll have to make a new one that I can have on there publicly and whatnot. I guess this means I'll have to be creative and such, but I lack the time for it...so boo on that one.

At least I can still watch the video privately on my laptop, which is fine. I think I'll make my own music next time or whatever, but that requires me to get that guitar. hahaha. I do want it though, but I mean, I don't NEED it, so I can wait until I get paid again...that'd be nice. =]

OH! So, it has been confirmed...Natalie, Adam and I will be going as V from V for Vendetta for Halloween! Wheee! I got the mask already. xD



Yeah...he's always such a cheery looking fellow, isn't he? hahaha. I'm really excited about being him this year and whatnot. I'm also excited about my birthday coming up in about a week and a half. I'll finally be 21 and I can't wait. It's like turning 18, but better this time. I don't think we'll get lost for three hours and wind up getting Jamba Juice in Downtown Disney. hahaha. Good times.

I aced my paper in Sociology, but I have my exam in there this week..EEEEP! I have yet to read the contents of the book...shame shame...I know...I read a few chapters, but the exam is on like 8 chapters...AHHHH!!! 'm slightly intimidated, but not. I don't know. haha. Well, that's all I really have to say at this given moment. I might be on some other time to post a vlog or blog...whatever comes first.

Lying Friends

Ha. So, Adam and Natalie totally lied to me and Bobby, not that I care too much for Bobby, mind you. haha. Natalie called me and told me that we were going to the beach after I was done babysitting and Bobby was off work. Well, we wound up not going to the beach, but to a little street sale thing in Oceanside and then into a kick ass bus. It was pretty damn awesome, I must admit. I'm still shooting that the people that created said magnificent bus were of the cult-ish nature, but they know how to make amazing buses. I as in utter awe...no joke. The bus had two stories and the seats turned into bunk beds and then a little dining table area had double bunk bed power. Amazing. There were little balcony sites within the bus as well. The lady talking to us gave me chills though, so I didn't take a free cookie. You know the saying, "someone drank the kool-aid?" Well, I'm no much of a kool-aid lover and so, that wasn't going to happen. hahaha.

After that, we saw these amazing ukuleles and well, I wanted one...DUH! But, being the dumb butts Natalie and I are...we only had credit cards and NO CASH! We're honestly never thinking things through...it's a shock we're alive. hahaha. Well, Bobby and Adam didn't want to purchase said instruments for us, even though my day of birth is creeping up and that saddened me. Anyway, reason we drove the good hour out there...a hookah bar. Yup, Adam and Natalie wanted to go to one and didn't think to tell me or Bobby until we were in Adam's bus. hahaha. Those jerks. Poor Bobby was dressed for the beach though...he had his trunks on and a tank...it was like 6 pm when we left to go. Idiot...

So, apparently Adam was stupid and here wasn't a bar there...our traveling was filled with failure. Damn. But, Adam wasn't going to quit...oh no...we had to keep going...goodness...we wound up driving down to San Marcos and going into a GuitarCenter just to ask one of the guys working there if they knew of a place...lo and behold...someone did! Yup...we were getting somewhere...and while Adam did that...Natalie and I asked the guy in a wheelchair to get us the ukulele that was the cheapest and it happened to be on the tallest shelf so this really cute guy got it and let me hold it. I began playing it poorly since the thing wasn't even tuned let alone strung tight enough to be plucked at. hahaha. Well, he wound up tightening the four strings and played it. I wound up playing the bongos and having an older gentleman stare at me. That was fun.

Well, once at the bar, we get the hookah order and then sat outside and people were drunk and loud as hell. Adam and I sat down while Natalie and Bobby were getting friendly and ordering food. The place looked shady...Adam and I were like "Hell no...we're not eating here..." Apparently their double cheeseburgers kicked ass though. Weird. As we were smoking the flavored tobacco through a water pipe, someone hit the manager's car and drove off. All Hell broke loose.

Yeah, that was good stuff. I left out a few things because I'm sure this is long enough already, but it was effin hilarious. hahahaha.

tsk tsk tsk

Wow...so it's been awhile since I've updated this thing and I guess it's because I've been into Snapvine and YouTube. Hahaha. I just get distracted and I've been sick. Oh, and there's no real point in me posting anymore on my audio one simply because I'm doing that on Snapvine now.

I guess making a video and talking or just talking in general is just loads easier, but I look like utter shit right now and I feel like typing for some odd reason. hahaha. Weird.

So, what's new with me...

I've been sad. Despite how I appear online and whatnot or been on the phone or on messenger...I've been downright horrible. I know...that means I've lied. The only thing that has made me smile as of late was a stupid video I made. Yeah, click it. I dare you. Anyway, things have been just frustrating and I haven't been in the best state to be dealing with things. I went completely radical on myself and chopped my hair off and then dyed it and ditched my classes. Yeah, this isn't good, right? I've even been neglecting the gym, which is strange for me. I love going...or at least I did.

This is like a sad post and I don't like that, but it's my fucking blog so I can say whatever the fuck I want in it...you choose to read it or not and whatever. My hand is going numb again...I think it's just me being on so much and whatnot, but I'm not sure. I hate doctors so I don't plan on getting that checked out unless my hands begins turning purple or something. I am stubborn. Heh. I'm hella tired, but not able to sleep, so I'm on here and listening to Michael Buck talk and whatnot. It's more like background static. No offense, Buck. <3

Okay, well I dropped my Anthropology class because I really think I will fail if I continue to be in it, but not attend. As for my other class that I have been avoiding, I enjoy the subject greatly, so I think I'll be fine with that. I hope so anyhow, but if I do badly on the first one, I'll make it up on the rest, I know that for certain. Apparently I'm an anxious person and a bit depressed and that doesn't help anything. I'm just not really caring about anything to be frank. I do care about one thing for certain, I care about taking care of Jasmin, my baby niece. Yeah, her smile makes me happy and I just want to keep her safe. I love that child to death, I really do. I mean, I do still care for my loved ones and friends, but like other things that used to interest me...don't. Utter failure...I know...but I can't help it at the moment.

Well, this update on me is shit. Damn. I'm sorry that I fail. Blah.

avoiding the paper. heh

Yeah, I'm avoiding my 3-page paper at all costs right now...by which means that I made a vlog and I answered a new RANDOM QUESTION in my profile. Yep. I love answering those stupid things. So, just pretty much enjoy whatever I put up here if you want. There's another vlog thing on my audio page, which I really should've posted here, but oh well.

exactly five years ago

I've been really in a reminiscing mood since tomorrow is the birthday of someone I held very close to my heart. I honestly thought we'd be the best of friends for ever. Yeah, one of those people, well, I mean, he'll always have that special place with me because he was just that important to me and I miss having him in my life...I really do. It's awful not being able to talk to him like I used to and whatnot. I thought he was the only person to ever get me, but I guess I have to let go at some point about that stuff, right? It's hard though since I'm the kind of person that remembers basically every. Anyway, there was a reason I was writing this. Hahaha. Yes, I always have reasons...main one...I'm bored. Second reason...I just feel like doing this. Yeah, that's about it really.

Alright, so exactly four years ago, it was Julian's 16th birthday and I remember this particular birthday because it was the first time I ever drank in my life. Yes, I was a late bloomer in a sense since half the people I've ever met in my life had their first drink at like 12. Why brag about that? I mean, really? Well, I remember practically living at Julian's house at the time since I would bum rides to get there and just talk to his mother, father, brother, or him. See? I was pretty close to them and I miss those times. Well, we had this little party for him and his parents let us all drink since we weren't planning on driving anywhere. I was fifteen...I know...shame on me. haha.

Well, the one thing that really stuck out on this day was this event...watching the movie Aladdin. It's my favorite Disney movie, by the by. So, Carlos, Julian's brother, decided to put that movie in when we were chilling in his room...all buzzed and whatnot. Well, I'm laying on Julian's lap and I think Mandi's back. Ha. Yeah, something like that. On the part where Aladdin is stuck in the Cave of Wonders, I was really get to the point of being near drunk and as Genie went, "And I can't bring people back from the dead...It's not a pretty picture! I don't like doing that!" He's all green and like melting or something at that point, right? Well, I'm watching this scene and all of the sudden Genie's eyes are like changing from red to green...spasm status. I freaked out!

I screamed and fell off the bed, laying on the floor and part of Mikey's leg. Everyone stared at me and started laughing hysterically. I laughed with them and then Julian fell on me. Mandi came after that and then Shelley and Carlos. Oh God...I couldn't breathe, but that was the last time I ever saw all of us in the same room together...laughing, smiling and just being so close. I miss that so much. Granted, they were dying of laughter over my stupidity, but I'd love to relive that just once more time since all those friendships began to waver a bit. =/

I'm a sap...so sue me. But, you have to admit that me falling off the bed in such an ungraceful manner was entertaining to envision, right? Yeah, I thought so. And...HAPPY BIRTHDAY JULIAN! And...CONGRATULATIONS SHELLEY ON GETTING ENGAGED!!!

Yeah, I'm really excited for both of them and I'm just glad that their lives are going well from what I've gathered. It's sad when friendships begin to dwindle, but that is life, right? I just want to keep those I love as close as I can, but sometimes letting go is the way to do it.

sleeplessness & drunkards of the hobo kind

So, I know...two in one day...is she absolutely mad?! Well, I'm not. I'm quite happy really. It's technically tomorrow on the East Coast anyhow, so I'm not really on the same day if you go by that logic. Hehe. Anyway...onto the story!

So, the reason I'm not sleeping is because I took a nap earlier. I was going to visit my baby niece, but my mum wanted to come with me, so I decided to wait for her. Well, she came home late and I conked out. Lame. Well, that means I'm wide awake and ready to share a tale of greatness because I love what happened last week in San Diego.

After my appointment, my sister, best friend and I decided to go somewhere random since my best friend, Natalie, and I felt utterly unaccomplished with our summer this year. We did a few things, but nothing to be so proud of and brag about. I mean, the last thing we bragged about was getting on Price is Right and yes, we were on the stage. WOOT! Anyway, we decided to go to San Diego because there's a school out there that both of us were dying to attend and my sister, Cherelle, agreed to come with us. So, we met up at a Starbucks and then drove out to San Diego! Excited yet? Oh, well, you should be!

Once there, we had no fucking idea where anything was. None of us realized that we didn't know the coordinates of the school or anything for that matter. We just knew there were some cool things in San Diego, so we drove aimlessly...texting people and hoping to goodness they knew where something was...they failed us. Oh, and Cherelle didn't have her boyfriend's GPS thing, so there went trying to use that. Honestly, since she bought that fucking thing for him, we have not used it when we really needed it. We just fucked around with it. For example, I used it to find the exact coordinates of my bed. And yes, I still have those coordinates. Ha.

Alright, we're in San Diego and we go shopping at the market place thing [I forgot the name of it] and they HAD to buy nail polish that changed colors in the sun! It was pretty cool, I must admit, but not worth the 9 dollars one had to shed for it. Though they bought it, I was the one that used it, even though my nails were already black. Ha. They were chipped and whatnot, so it was fine. Well, I didn't know that my sister's sparkly one would change to this deep crimson shade and so after painting my nails, we left to look for a fucking cookie and a lavatory. As we scanned the area where the lavatories had doors [yes, we found women's restrooms that just had open stalls. Disgusting!] Well, I'm walking around in the sun and I look down at my hands...I screamed.

I was like, "Holy fucking cricket! My fingers are bleeding! Oh my God!" Needless to say, people were staring at me with great interest and I was freaking out, but there was no blood. It was the fucking nail polish, but then for some reason, I honestly don't know why, but I yelled out, "Oh God! I have rabies!" and that definitely got me some attention right there, so we left...running to the car. After that excitement, my sister was dying to bring us to this restaurant called, "Extraordinary Desserts" and well, it was just that. Parking was a bitch though and we had to go meter style, but we were fine with the walking; we were just starving.

Well, I stuck in a dollar fifty's worth of quarters into the machine and we headed over to the eatery. The desserts were so gorgeous that you didn't want to eat them...seriously. I was just gaping at them. My sister had been there a few times and she said that Natalie and I really needed to look at the treats so we could pick one because we weren't leaving until we each had a dessert. Well, Natalie wound up dragging me over there because I was breaking in new chucks and my feet were hurting after walking around for a good 5 hours all day, but she got me up and we looked at the desserts. There were three that she wanted and three that I wanted, so you can only guess how we solved this predicament...

YES! WE ROCK, PAPER, SCISSORED IT! Hahaha. People were staring at us as we jumped up and down as we recited the words and after we got our choices...we changed them. It took a good 15.6 minutes for us to choose and right as we sat down, we ordered our dinners and then my sister was like, "Guys! We need to put more money into the meter!" I was like "Fuck...do we have to?" and she said, "Yes, we fucking have to! If my car gets towed, it's your fault!" So, Natalie hates seeing me and my sister argue and volunteers to go, but of course, that meant me going with her and I bitched and moaned all the way out the very large door. The door could fit a truck in it...it was that vast.

As we walked out and waited for the cross walk to light, I saw a man sitting on the sidewalk...and he had the best thing ever in his hands...a bottle of alcohol in a paper bag! I seriously squealed in delight and ran over to him, but Natalie pulled me away. I was honestly excited and so, after we placed another dollar into the meter, we headed back and the man was still there. He was dirty and was missing some teeth, so I assumed he was homeless, but he was then enjoying a sandwich. I really wanted to just sit there with him and chat, but Natalie thought he was going to kill us and dragged me away. I was saddened by this and pouted the whole way back. The worse part was that when we went back outside after our dinner, the man was gone and a cop car drove away, so I'm not sure if he was arrested for loitering or for public drunkenness, but he was gone and I just wanted to ask him a simple question...

"What kind of alcohol do hobos drink out of bags?"

I'll never get to ask him that now though. =[