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Wow...so it's been awhile since I've updated this thing and I guess it's because I've been into Snapvine and YouTube. Hahaha. I just get distracted and I've been sick. Oh, and there's no real point in me posting anymore on my audio one simply because I'm doing that on Snapvine now.

I guess making a video and talking or just talking in general is just loads easier, but I look like utter shit right now and I feel like typing for some odd reason. hahaha. Weird.

So, what's new with me...

I've been sad. Despite how I appear online and whatnot or been on the phone or on messenger...I've been downright horrible. I know...that means I've lied. The only thing that has made me smile as of late was a stupid video I made. Yeah, click it. I dare you. Anyway, things have been just frustrating and I haven't been in the best state to be dealing with things. I went completely radical on myself and chopped my hair off and then dyed it and ditched my classes. Yeah, this isn't good, right? I've even been neglecting the gym, which is strange for me. I love going...or at least I did.

This is like a sad post and I don't like that, but it's my fucking blog so I can say whatever the fuck I want in it...you choose to read it or not and whatever. My hand is going numb again...I think it's just me being on so much and whatnot, but I'm not sure. I hate doctors so I don't plan on getting that checked out unless my hands begins turning purple or something. I am stubborn. Heh. I'm hella tired, but not able to sleep, so I'm on here and listening to Michael Buck talk and whatnot. It's more like background static. No offense, Buck. <3

Okay, well I dropped my Anthropology class because I really think I will fail if I continue to be in it, but not attend. As for my other class that I have been avoiding, I enjoy the subject greatly, so I think I'll be fine with that. I hope so anyhow, but if I do badly on the first one, I'll make it up on the rest, I know that for certain. Apparently I'm an anxious person and a bit depressed and that doesn't help anything. I'm just not really caring about anything to be frank. I do care about one thing for certain, I care about taking care of Jasmin, my baby niece. Yeah, her smile makes me happy and I just want to keep her safe. I love that child to death, I really do. I mean, I do still care for my loved ones and friends, but like other things that used to interest me...don't. Utter failure...I know...but I can't help it at the moment.

Well, this update on me is shit. Damn. I'm sorry that I fail. Blah.